Ch. 2 God Is Either Everything or God Is Nothing.

God is either everything or God is nothing. 
God is either everything or God is nothing. That is not just a concept, but a mentality. It’s a way of hope when despair sinks in. It’s important to include in this thinking that also means God’s plan is perfect. And if I am going to trust God’s plan is perfect, then I must embrace the difficulties I endure during God’s plan. It’s hard to keep faith when all else is lost. It’s hard to remain stable minded or emotionally regulated when truthfully, everything seems to be getting emotionally fucked. The challenged in God’s perfect plan though are not for me to criticize or create animosity to God. That saying of you will only be given what you can handle is true. This is hard to remember during the times it seems God is not with me, but that weak minded thinking is only my selfish mind to blame. 
It’s not up for me to decide what is best for me. I will always think that I know what is best for me. And, that is also why it’s hard to accept living life on life’s terms. I dictate my own future and God may have a plan for me, but my self-will will always have the freedom to determine my next step. At this point, I now must remember my own thinking and ideas, decision making, and spontaneous behavior is what lead me to lose the custody of my daughter. So, I ask myself this: “if living life on my terms and refusing to learn to live life on God’s terms worked out so poorly for me, why would I continue to behave in ways that lead me to pitiful decision making.” Truthfully, that is the insanity of addiction. After understanding, I need to give up my self sabotaging thinking and behaviors if I ever want to better myself, this is where the power of God steps in. This for me, is where the true freedom for myself began. Giving up the thought that God has limits. I should not ever limit a limitless God. Remembering that the gift of another chance is truly a miracle in itself, I can accept the possibility of a miracle in God’s perfect plan.
There’s no delusional thought process that a miracle can and or will occur in every situation. Sometimes, facts are plain and simply, just facts. Terminal illness cannot be cured and the dead just cannot come back to life. But miracles are possible in some situations. There must be sound and reasonably thought out logic to decipher where hope should be gambled. This isn’t an easily grasped process to understand. It takes levels to break down and understand, but ultimately the starting point after finding God is understanding that God is either everything or God is nothing. There is no in-between and when placing faith in God’s plan, there must additionally be an absolutely whole hearted trust in the plan God has created for everyone as well. Despite what trials and tribulations are faced, take each one as a test. But each test is pass or fail, with no ability to prepare. The only way to pass is to facilitate a new understanding towards spiritual growth. Each passed test is like a key that can unlock a new door. We must shut the door we leave behind, but in fact when each door opens and another one closes, we find miracles we never thought possible.